Wow. Long since I been here. I even forgotten my password. It is just nice to be back. Hope to be here more often. :)

First, I’m sorry. Completely forgot it 10pts Multiple Choice Founding of 13 Colonies, American Revolution and Civil War, reasons of the civil war: Take Note: reason are: trade routes, source materials and markets, increase profit to fund war against France; Why did the North win over the South during the Civil War? Physical and technological superiority plus commitment and preparedness.study also Louisiana Purchase, modes of expansion (purchase, treaty, wars, cessation) 5 pts Analogy: WWI and WWII: League of Nations and United Nations: Remember WWI US president was Woodrow Wilson, WWII Franklin Roosevelt. No need to remember the three other head of states during the Treaty of Versailles.Do not focus on the reasons of wars. Remember: Arms Race, Militarization and Extreme Nationalism. 10 pts. Identification: Bull of Demarcation but forget about the reasons of exploration plus explorers and consequences, personalities of the French Revolution, the Reign of Terror, Estates General, industrial revolution but do not include why it did not happen in other countries, remeber the capital (moanpower, resources, markets, transportation, entrepreneur) 10 pts. Matching Type: Expansion, enlightenment do not study the others except john locke, Baron de Monstesquieu and Copernicus. Declaration of American independence 20 pts TRUE or FALSE: running from 1st Q to 4th Q: first Q, do not be bothered much by Egypt except hieroglyphics, the contributions of the Near Eastern People and Mesoamerica. Remember Rome and Greece as the classical civilizations focused on the human person, revival is called the Renaissance. Do not focus on Martin Luther, John Wycliffe, Henry VIII plus his complex family three (the six wives) remeber John Calvin: Predestination.Work also relationship between the church and state during the Middle Ages. Thank God no Feudalism and Manorialism. Study too the Portugese explorers Vasco de Gama, Bartolome Dias 5 pts drawing: Summary yun madali lang 10 pts Cause and Effect: No Thesis, antithesis and synthesis. 5 events were given. identify effects and evaluate values (ex. perseverance, diligence, etc. cliche hehehe) remember too the consequences of WWII UN, empowerment of women (also for WWI) nationalism. 10pts Sequencing: French Revoluiton; causes liberty, fraternity and equality plus ouster of Louis XVI sequence events too, after the declaration of the rights of men remember that France became a republic ok. History of the US-expansion-civil war 10pts Odd one Out: Enlightenment: John Locke plus Baron de Montesquieu, do not include the Jesuits. Remeber Copernicus and the Copernican Revolution, Consequences of WWII. 10pts Mapping: Remember: US, Britain, Germany, France, Japan, Italy, Greece, spain, Egypt, Germany. forget about Macarthur and the USAFFE plus greater east asia blah blah

I used to think of being the best. I always wanted to deliver the best of what I can do. I never settled with being second. However it frustrated me. I can never be number one always and I can never make life fit my designs, always. Yet, what is wrong being second or third or part of the majority? What if I am not among the A-listed and instead just one of the many ordinary people? Will I cease to exist? Ah, maybe. I will die, just like everyone, let us stop pretending naivete, I desire attention. Oh, no, I crave for attention. Lol, I do. Attention makes me affirm myself. Everyone does. I am who I am because I am attended by others who, though not themselves pretend, or so strive to be someone. Hahaha, going in circles! But then, there is something good being ordinary. For one, you can do the things you like to do without being over conscious of people waiting for any error on your part. Attention drags perfection, hmmm, how perfect? Violent, perhaps. Another, being ordinary makes you look at things more important. You stop drawing attention to you, thus stop being perfect and you start realizing, ouch I’m not perfect but the world is. Gee all along I am misled, God put me here not to hold the world but for me to be crafted by it so that I may, one day, fit in its beautiful symmetry. Who is the best then? Definitely not me, I do not write the fate of the universe. I have my own. I just float, float like clouds swirling, following the wind and colored by love that surrounds. I am not perfect. I cannot create the world. The world creates me and so I am the world and being so, I recreate. I am not perfect but from me being one, I become. Ah, being and becoming, forever tied but always be, in the fate designed by God.

Fit in, strive to be more human my first batch of Paulinian students.

Scribbling notes talaga, daming wrong grammar, wordy pa at insonsistent style. Moral Lesson: Recheck, the world is reading.

If I have to make bridges to the sky

I have to cross first the wind and die

For only then will I sow the seeds that will fit

The hearts of men grown shrewd

If I have to link the gaps of islands to forests and back

I need to walk through the sea and sink

For only then will I harvest the hearts thrown far away and broken into chains

If I need be to surmount the highest mountain peaks

Climb the walls of ladder steep and sing melody long gone

I need to cry and laugh with no one seeing

For only then will I be able to close my heart and absorb all lost and wanting

Should I fly to reach the star of heaven o’er

I need to fall over and be lifted high

Only then will I burn and live forever

Should I touch God’s face and ask him why

Why put me in this dreaded place

I have to cry, a river let flow to wash away my guilt and find the reasons why

Only then will the seeds be watered and grow

If I have to say good bye, I’ll let lose my soul

And be distracted not by sad farewells

But animated still with fetters restricting

Cry and laugh, live and die over again.

We fly not to reach the sky but to see how beautiful the fields below are.

We dance not to entertain but to encompass space and be one with the universe.

We sing not to please the crowd but to fuse ourselves with the melody.

We cry not to die but to start living a meaningful life.

We need to say good bye no matter how difficult to renew what was lost.

So I say good bye and in this solitude, I find solace.

I will be free and in that freedom, I will be happy.

Together with Sister Teresita, I watched a concert in celebration of the mission of SPC in the Philippines. It was not really my plan. I wanted to go home early and sleep but I attended because it was an opportunity to explore how St. Paul Manila looks like. Its neither enjoyable nor regretable, good to taste but boring. What excited me however was the deeper message of the concert: celebrating the mission of transforming the lives of people and seeking strength to continue with the work. I pondered on this and I too have much reason to be thankful. Despite my lack of training, I was given the chance to teach in Saint Paul and those years were fruitful ones. I’ve learned more about myself and others. I was commended and criticized which in the end widened my perspective and made it more balanced. Ironic but I’m looking forward to end my teaching stint in Saint Paul and move in a new direction. Of course I will miss a lot but moving on is a character of an authentic person. I don’t want to be comfortable because it is not who I am. All along I thought that the secluded life is the one meant for me only to realize that living  is to be present in the world. I will never regret being in Saint Paul and meeting all those wonderful people but I am compelled to discover what lies ahead. I want to say good bye but every time I think of it, I cannot but cry. Though not emotional, anxiety overwhelms me. Its undeniable that Saint Paul though good, had hurt me in varied ways, leaving is not to escape but a necessary bridge to filling what needs to be filled in order that the life inside me may shine brightly. As much as I want to, I will try with very little time, change my space so that in the end, towards the point of no return, though I cry, I remain standing and though dying, live anew.

finally i signed up. hope to make my stay here worthwhile. :)